Thursday, June 19, 2014

The Sugar Queen Book Review

Some authors force feed you every detail, until you are gagging on information, others insist you strain to read between the vague lines created in their ambiguous mind.  However, there are a few writers talented enough to float you along, allowing you to drift among a sea of lines and dialogue with ease. Lulling you into a story and creating a life in which you become an anxious voyeur, unwilling to leave the characters any privacy.  You feed on their thoughts and emotions, devouring their accounts as if they were your own, and become hopelessly lost when the last page insists you close the book on someone you now consider a friend.  Those are the authors I find compelling, the stories I relish and the books that inspire me.  Sarah Addison Allen is one such author. 

I previously read her book Garden Spells and was captivated by her use of language and the dreamy spell her words cast upon the reader, (click here to see my previous review).  I found myself a budding fan and was eager to read her next book on my list The Sugar Queen.  Well, here I am many
months later and finally able to complete that task, which I will only refer to as a joy. 

I’ve never considered myself a romantic but Ms. Allen’s unique blend of mild romance and mystery is something I absolutely LOVE!  The Sugar Queen, was another hypnotic tale, full of intrigue, personality and passion.  Ms. Allen has a real knack for conveying insight from a variety of perspectives.  The back stories for each character really engages the reader enough to want to be invested. 

I’m now eager to read the next Sarah Addison Allen books on my list, Waking Kate and Lost Lake. 

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Ugly Proof

Okay, it’s June and I have ugly proof that a low carb life is the only way for me.  For whatever reason I took a break from no carb.  I’d found my way under two-hundred pounds and I guess my psyche said “that’s enough”. 

At first I told myself, “One day a week, I will allow myself to indulge.”  Sounded reasonable enough.  However, one day turned into every day.  You may think it was a matter of self-control but it really wasn’t.  It seemed as if I’d never chosen no carb at all.  I just effortlessly floated into a routine of eating what I wanted, when I wanted, without ever really thinking about it.  It was easy.  No more having to make myself a salad while I prepared a separate meal for my family.  No more pealing the bun off my burger or watching others eat dessert.  No more questioning eyes gazing across the room at me, to see what it was I might or might not be eating. 

I would like to tell you this has gone on for a month, two weeks or a few days, but the truth is I don’t know.  I am one of those oddities who loses time like socks.  (I can’t measure distance, in miles or hours, I am broken in the world of numbers, in more ways than one, and without a calendar to plan out my days, I would be hopelessly late or missing.)  I can tell you, I have quickly gained back ten pounds! 

Now remember, I am a woman.   That being said, I know some of this is water weight and may disappear in a day or two, but I don’t want to allow myself that excuse either.  I want to see the truth for what it is.  I absolutely must put in the effort.  I can’t afford to eat a cookie or sit in my recliner all day.  I have to watch what I eat and put in those uncountable miles of exercise. 

The strange thing is, none of this is difficult.  I didn’t have a single problem saying “no” when I started this, so I don’t know why I would have ever changed a thing.  Celebration?  Absurd!  There is absolutely no joy or pride where I stand today. 

So let this be a warning to all of my friends who are battling with me.  Congratulate yourself by seeing your progress and let that be enough.  Don’t lose sight of why you began in the first place, so you won’t have to start over.  Luckily, I am not back at square one, but I would’ve been in the blink of an eye, if I hadn’t caught myself now.   

Remember, I am not saying no carb is the way for everyone, it’s just what works for me.  I am mainly confronting myself, as well as, encouraging you to find what works for you and to stick with it.   Hopefully, July will come with a resounding victory and I will be celebrating again…but this time with fireworks! J